my life is full and happy.
yet nothing I can feel.
always have that yearning
for something that is real.
of friends i have a hunded
and family is the core.
yet nothing can wake me from this daze
of wanting something more.
it's hard to keep pretending
that everything is right.
spend all day with a fake smile
wishing to sink back into night.
when nobody can find me,
i'm safe in these 4 walls.
the darkness washes over me
and i try to fight the fall.
but it is easier to not resist
no need to fight or flee.
but i know without that effort
my life will never be free.
i'll stay within that darkness
until the dawn brings the sun.
but i cannot help but hope
that this fight by me can be won.